Unspoken Enmity

i woke up this morning with heavy dizzy head and unpredictable temper. one wrong move, i thought i'm gonna explode and somebody might get hurt emotionally. i am silent when i thinking deep and its dangerous because many things is running on my head. with my unpredictable temper comes with my unusual attitude. this side of mine comes out only when i heard something isn't nice especially when somebody criticized my family.

i know we're poor but besides the challenge i'm proud to say that my parents brought me up as a good daughter, student, citizen and child of God. i never enjoyed gossiping and peeping out at some others'lives. i hated rumors until now. they are like contagious diseases spreading out rapidly, become epidemic and bring plague to those who are fond of making up stories.

it's really hard to dealt with individual differences especially if the one you are dealing with will never stoop down to understand and appreciate the things that differ from their perspective. sometimes its better to deal with people who have less knowledge but got values than those with empowering closed mind and rotten trait.

attacking me at my back is definitely a cowardly action. those who are doing this are the people who are afraid of their own committed mistakes. they pretend to be your friends who understand and love you to cover up their unbearable poignant dirty secrets.
thank God that my thread of patience never ripped out and my cooling system is unbeatable if so happen that all these things messed up,there will be floods of tears and blood.